i've had a xanga since whenever. i'm sick of it. if anyone's checking this out, please visit fatproject.blogspot.com.

yeah, i'm anti-xanga just for the heck of it. there's nothing better to do (except eat, of course)

as you can see, the last update was over a year ago, this probably will never be updated again.

Talking to Emily right now on MSN. Why? Because it’s nice enough to allow us to send pictures.

AIM sucks xP.

Anyways, yesterday I went to Anne unni’s house...or is it sunsaengnim...or should I call her P’Anne (since she's half Thai) ?? Anyways, to sum it up, she’s my 24-year-old Korean teacher who I’m planning to hook up with P’Pop but that’s a completely different story. So, my point is, her mom, whom I should call sunsaengnim, made us (which is me, P’Jo, P’Meow...et al) REALLY good Korean food..kimchi and ojinguh and stuff....SO GOOD!! Hahaha...and her brother is so cute... Yoon oppa.....but too bad he’s going out with Rina...what a small world...

If you had NO IDEA what I just talked about...it’s ok. Email me and I’ll write you a really long record about it later ^^;;;

And...last week on Saturday I went with Ginger to Siam. She made me wait for like THIRTY FUKKEN MINUTES and heck I was pissed off...but then she came all dressed so nice (Peppermint dressed her up, apparently)...so I let it go, because I mean, I wouldn’t want to be walking around Siam (the Thai version of the Japanese Harajuku) with her dressed in a big shirt and PE Shorts...SO YEAH!

We watched THE LAST SAMURAI and it’s suck a fukken blast. Yes, I still hate Tom Cruise...but Ken Watanabe (the guy who plays Katsumoto) ROCKS!!

Plus, we also watched School of Rock later in the day. If you haven’t seen it yet...YOU’VE SAVED A LOT OF MONEY.

I watched Return of the King on Friday; that’s the day it came out in Thailand. 10 people, that’s a lot. We ate at Holy Pizza – some good ‘Tex Mex’ pizza there, although Shalene and Candice chickened out because it was too ‘spicy’ (heck it wasn’t!). Since Ginger doesn’t eat beef (just voluntarily) and Candice doesn’t also (cuz she loves cows, apparently), it was up to me and Shalene to finish the lasagna...which was on the good side. Thinking of it makes me salivate now, especially after that meager breakfast of two slices of bread and a glass of milk...

Anyways, the movie was a blast. Go see it – NOW.

Last night, I watched Two Towers with my sister. Ugh, Frodo was, and still is, a retard. But Aragorn/Viggo Mortensen is the best. And I still don’t understand while the put Liv Tyler’s name 3^rd in the credits when Miranda Otto even has more parts than her...and Cate Blanchett has her name 5^th...and she has like 4 minutes per each movie!! But it’s all cool though, cuz Liv Tyler simply rocks.

We also rented A Knight’s Tale. For all the fortunate who haven’t seen it yet, please don’t. It’s horrible.

“no more tears” – amuro namie

wow. i’ve moved on. that was quick. ^____________________________^.

i can’t wait to see moonchild. ginger better be quick!

it’s thanksgiving and did i ever mention thailand has no turkey? i think i did. i’ll spend my thanksgiving night playing karate and eating cup noodles. this totally rocks!

everything went so fine today..until he imed me. i guess it was something i was waiting for the whole week. ever since..i don't know since when...but all i know is that i've been waiting to talk to him for the longest time. maybe i should write him first...but then...i don't know.seriously, i can't think straight where he's concerned. heck, i can't think at all. everytime i'm about to say something, i have to think it over twice, three times, four even. i'm scared it might not interest him..i'm scared that he'll just give me a one-word answer and then lapse into silence..and i hate those kind of silences that come out in chats. it's uncomfortable, and i can't bear it. but then, i know i have to be myself. but is myself an interesting thing to be? i don't know..i don't want to put up a facade, i don't want to be fake. i want to be ME..as in ME...but i want a me and he would like...

he did write to me first today. is that an improvement...does that mean he hasn't forgetten yet that i exist? does that mean that i mean something more to him than some girl he met through someone else...someone he'll see twice and never see again. does that mean i have another chance of meeting him? i want to see him...i want to tell him i want to see him..and if i can ever stop being a chicken, maybe i'll ask him if he wants to see me. but is that right? i've never done it before, ask a guy out. not as in asking out like 'get together in a relationship' out, but just going out and have fun. i've done that to other people, like jimmy and eddie...but they're my friends, but he's different. have i lost my chance? am i too shy? why did the internet have to disconnect while i was chatting with him. i hate it when that happens. it means i loose the mood we had, or at least, that we were making. i want him to see me with my new hair...i want him to know that yes, i do like him. it might not be that deep right now, but it's enough to make me really nervous when i'm around him. do we have potential? i don't know..i don't know anythign right now. i don't even know what school he goes to. all i know is i want to see him again, in person. i want to walk besides him when we're at the mall and i want us to eat ice cream together like we did the two times we met. but this time, it'll be just us. just him and me...and we'll talk.

do i sound like some stupid, lovesick idiot? i think so. i'm becoming the type of girl i used to hate. i really like him though..but why can't i find the courage to tell all that i've just typed out to him?